Tuesday, July 23, 2013

Tuesday July 23 2013

I had another round of inpatient chemo last week.  Only three days, but the effects are still lasting.  I think I smell different.  I have nausea.  I have diarrhea.  I feel shaky.

I have to do this one more time. 

I can do it.

I want to write more, but I just don't have the energy or want.

Friday, July 5, 2013


Sometimes I wish I could go back in time and be a better person.

Tuesday, July 2, 2013

Last day of chemo!

Today was my last day of the third round of chemo!  I'm hoping this is it, but my doctor did tell me I might have to do 1 or 2 more rounds.  We shall see!

Last week, I started feeling achy in my shoulder area, in addition to my right hip and the bottoms of my feet.  My local doctor told me he thinks its a side effect from the chemo.  I am hoping he is right.  I get so nervous nowadays, every little thing just makes me think, "Okay, what else?"  My body is very stiff throughout the day, especially in the morning, after waking up.  The hot flashes and night sweats are enough, aren't they?  I am hoping my body starts to normalize soon. 

The nurses at chemo had a cake, cookie bars, and presents for me today to celebrate.  I was getting chemo every weekday for 5 weeks, that's a lot of chemo.  It was really sweet.  I love to crochet, so they gave me some crochet thread and a crochet book.  Very nice and I can't wait to start. 

Next week, I get my 3rd bone marrow biopsy.  I am nervous about it, but the nurses told me to not think...hope...but think gone.  Already gone.  Everything is clear.

Otherwise, I feel really good...except for the stiff shoulder, neck, hip, and feet.  The feet are actually starting to feel better.  I just want my body to return to normal.  Oh please, God, please give me some normal back.  Living is great, and I am thankful for everyday, but the achy shoulders suck when you want to make bread or cookies.